I have a new job. At a state agency, for lots more money and much better benefits. And, I will have additional opportunities for advancement. I start November 12. I am sad to leave my job as I love the people and the work, but this is a better career move, and I am excited about it. My current job was exactly what I needed to get me back into the swing of "the real world."
My new job is in criminal justice. It is so interesting how I look at things through the glasses of the AA program. I hesitate to get too spiritual or religious on here, because it hasn't been who I am in the past and my old friends might think I went crazy, but I do believe in the blessings of the program. I am beginning to think that God wants me to be working in criminal justice.
I majored in psychology in college and intended to become a counselor of some sort. After college I took an entry level job in an agency and I worked in conflict resolution. My boss was nutso, so after a year I transferred to another department in that agency - in criminal justice. I enjoyed it.
After another year I got a job closer to home teaching substance abuse in area schools. Then, a random job in the criminal justice field opened up in THAT agency, and I was asked to take it because I was the only one there with any criminal justice experience. I did that job for 6 years.
Then, I started in development (fundraising) at my current job. Out of the blue the state agency that I had taken a test with called for an interview - amid a hiring freeze. They got a large amount of stimulus funds and a job was created to oversee the grants they are giving out.
It is like I keep getting these subtle nudges in a certain direction - so I will do it! I like criminal justice. And, maybe God has big plans for me in that field.
On that note, my sponsor and I are going to formally take the third step together next week.
Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.
Since joining the program, this step has tripped me up, and I haven't felt ready to do it. I haven't wanted to turn anything over. I want to be in charge. Turning things over (to me) has always seemed like giving up. Giving up power, or control, or something. But, man, is it liberating to realize that some things are out of your control. REALLY out of your control.
That doesn't give you license to do nothing or not try. That always confused me too. You still need to do the work.
Postscript: I started this post many months ago. I am going to publish it now. I did take the third step with my sponsor and every day have to remind myself to turn things over. I am now working on my fourth step. More on that later.....
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