Independance Day

Happy Fourth of July!

We are going to my brother-in-laws for a cookout and a parade today. My husband and I have gone every year since we met for fourth of July. So, ummmm, 13 years I guess. This is the 13th year. The first year was in 1996 (we met in January 2006) - and it is now 2009 - yeah 13 years. We were married in October 1997 so our 12th wedding anniversary is this year. Wow.

Anyways, it is really important to my husband to do this tradition every year. Our kids have always gone, and they enjoy it. I am sort-of mixed. I mean, I don't hate it. I just do it. I made my white cake with the strawberry and blueberry flag on the frosting. My husband made his pasta salad. My kids are excited. I have cute flag outfits for them to wear. My husband's BFF is in town (same town where my BIL lives - about an hour away) and we will go over and see him, his wife, and their two kids. We will likely go to the cemetary and visit my father in law's grave (same town). I need to get showered and the house picked up so we can go.

I'll bring some crocheting I think. I haven't crocheted in a long time, but I enjoy it. Plus my MIL can help me!

My niece who is 16 has a boyfriend. Yikes! I am excited to meet him but is so strange to see my neices and nephews grow up.

I'm just tired. I met with my sponsor last night. We sat on lawn chairs outside on the grass at a church where a meeting is and we talked. Then and we went to the meeting together. I feel emotionally exhausted from trying to make this progress. It is hard. It is painful.

I need more meetings. I have to put this first. Why is it so hard?

OK - off to get ready to go.