and I am not sure why.
I am coming up on my one year anniversary. That is a good thing. I will be celebrating at my home group. My friend T, the young guy who befriended me the very first night I went to AA, is taking me out to lunch on my anniversary. He is my closest AA friend, and we get along great. Then we will shop a little. I am taking the day off work and it will just be a nice day. Then, we will go to our evening meeting.
Even though my home group is a closed meeting, we allow non-alcoholics at the celebration meetings. My husband is coming to my anniversary, as is my mother. My father will be out of town. I am kind-of bummed about that. When he told me he and my stepmother were going to see my stepsister in California for Thanksgiving, I was like, "Oh. But you will miss my anniversary." He simply said, "I'm not skipping the trip for that."
That hurt my feelings. I guess maybe he doesn't get that it is a big deal to me. He doesn't ask much about it. He is really occupied with taking care of my sister, and I know I shouldn't be so sensitive about it.
My inner twelve year old is just asking, "What about me?"
I just have so much going on. I am feeling overwhelmed with work and the kids and just life in general. When I feel overwhelmed, I tend to shut down and hide. I know that I should do the opposite - I should go to more meetings. My instinct is to isolate.
Oh well...it will be fine.
2 comments:
But if you shut down and hide than we can't go out and make fun of Jamie!! (for what he eats, for what he drinks, for what he says -- I thought about it and that guy really takes a lot of abuse from us =)) I'm sorry your dad won't be around for the big one-year. But we'll all be thinking about you Kris.
Lol! Thanks Sheil.
We are brutal with him, aren't we?
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