Today is my one year anniversary. It happens to be both the day I celebrated at my home group - and also my exact anniversary (in my home group, we celebrate on the last Wednesday of the month - this month, it happens to be on my actual anniversary).
I feel overwhelmed by the outpouring of love I had from my AA friends. It was just such a nice meeting.
The morning meeting I go to regularly also had a celebration for me this morning. I feel totally celebrated out! One of my AA friends, who has been sober for 6 years and is a person I know in the work world outside of AA, gave me his one year chip. I feel honored to have the chip he carried for so long. I just hope someday I can give it to someone else.
It was a nice day. :)
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Feeling Blue....
and I am not sure why.
I am coming up on my one year anniversary. That is a good thing. I will be celebrating at my home group. My friend T, the young guy who befriended me the very first night I went to AA, is taking me out to lunch on my anniversary. He is my closest AA friend, and we get along great. Then we will shop a little. I am taking the day off work and it will just be a nice day. Then, we will go to our evening meeting.
Even though my home group is a closed meeting, we allow non-alcoholics at the celebration meetings. My husband is coming to my anniversary, as is my mother. My father will be out of town. I am kind-of bummed about that. When he told me he and my stepmother were going to see my stepsister in California for Thanksgiving, I was like, "Oh. But you will miss my anniversary." He simply said, "I'm not skipping the trip for that."
That hurt my feelings. I guess maybe he doesn't get that it is a big deal to me. He doesn't ask much about it. He is really occupied with taking care of my sister, and I know I shouldn't be so sensitive about it.
My inner twelve year old is just asking, "What about me?"
I just have so much going on. I am feeling overwhelmed with work and the kids and just life in general. When I feel overwhelmed, I tend to shut down and hide. I know that I should do the opposite - I should go to more meetings. My instinct is to isolate.
Oh well...it will be fine.
I am coming up on my one year anniversary. That is a good thing. I will be celebrating at my home group. My friend T, the young guy who befriended me the very first night I went to AA, is taking me out to lunch on my anniversary. He is my closest AA friend, and we get along great. Then we will shop a little. I am taking the day off work and it will just be a nice day. Then, we will go to our evening meeting.
Even though my home group is a closed meeting, we allow non-alcoholics at the celebration meetings. My husband is coming to my anniversary, as is my mother. My father will be out of town. I am kind-of bummed about that. When he told me he and my stepmother were going to see my stepsister in California for Thanksgiving, I was like, "Oh. But you will miss my anniversary." He simply said, "I'm not skipping the trip for that."
That hurt my feelings. I guess maybe he doesn't get that it is a big deal to me. He doesn't ask much about it. He is really occupied with taking care of my sister, and I know I shouldn't be so sensitive about it.
My inner twelve year old is just asking, "What about me?"
I just have so much going on. I am feeling overwhelmed with work and the kids and just life in general. When I feel overwhelmed, I tend to shut down and hide. I know that I should do the opposite - I should go to more meetings. My instinct is to isolate.
Oh well...it will be fine.
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