The Pink Cloud

In recovery, "the pink cloud" is often mentioned anytime a newcomer looks happy.

I guess the phenomenon is basically the ability to feel happy after feeling shitty for so long. From what I have heard, that cloud ends when you start to deal with real life.

I was accused of being on a pink cloud today, simply because I am happy. My life is going well. I love my family, I love my job, I love my life. I feel like I am becoming the person I used to be again. I am positive that not drinking is a huge part of the reason I am doing well.

Do I have crappy days - sure! Some days are really hard. But, not impossible , which I think is the difference. I realize that I can get through it. I am learning the tools necessary to deal with life.

I can become complacent. I am guilty of often wondering if I can drink again someday. But, when I really think about it - it isn't worth it. I don't want to risk giving up what I have.

So, pink cloud or not, I am happy. And, proud of myself. And dumbfounded at the things I realize I may be able to accomplish.