I chaired. It was a really nice meeting. I sat between my sponsor K and my friend D - two very awesome women. They are strong, smart, funny, and successful. Plus they have excellent hair and dress really well. They are the type of women you see walking down the street and think they look so confident and put together. Stylish is an appropriate word for them.
It isn't just the outside though. They exude acceptance - acceptance for who they are (and even acceptance for who they were - when they were drinking), acceptance for others in every stage of sobriety, acceptance about the world around us. It is all very spiritual, and I can't even begin to imagine me feeling like that, but I felt lucky tonight that I got the chance to sit between them, and feel safe and happy that they are in my life. I feel hopeful that someday I can be as calm and wise as they are. The thing that is so beautiful, though, is that they know it is never done. We are always a work in progress. There isn't a point when you sit back, put your feet up, and say, "Ah, it's over. I'm all better now."
There were two newcomers there today - one has been sober since Thursday, and the other about a month. Looking at them sharing their feelings, I couldn't believe how far I have come in such a short time. I know what they are feeling, and being reminded of it is so important. Being able to say something encouraging to them was huge. It truly DOES help keep me sober when I help another alcoholic. I have had a a hard time understanding that, but I am beginning to get it. It is starting to click.
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